Caitlyn Jenner Reveals She Was Suicidal Before Transition

Caitlyn has been very open about her story and now she has spoken more on her feelings before her decision to make her transition public. She explained that she felt hopeless:

“There I was, in this beautiful beach house, all by my little lonesome, right back where I started, dealing with the same issues I had when I was 10 years old.”

When she was photographed entering a surgery to have her Adam’s Apple shaved, she began to feel suicidal, explaining that she started to think of the gun she had locked up at home as an easy way out. She told herself: “Go in there, no more pain.” But then, she woke up realising it didn’t have to end that way:

“I thought, ‘OK, you transition, big deal! You are still alive. You have to make your life interesting.’?But I started thinking, Maybe this is why God put me on earth. This issue has been swept under the rug for so long. I need to tell this story on the highest level you can possibly do it. Not just for me but for this entire community.”

Caitlyn says she’s now excited about what’s to come and believes what she went through isn’t actually the end of the world, just something she personally has to deal with:

“I am just excited about the future for the first time in a long, long time. And that is a nice feeling to have…. To be honest with you, if the worst thing in the world that happens to you is you are trans, you’ve got it made.”

She’s now about taking risks and living life to the fullest:

“Gamble, cheat, lie, and steal. Let me explain: Gamble for your best shot in life—dare to take risks. Cheat those who would have you be less than you are. Lie in the arms of those you love. And finally, steal every moment of happiness.”