He may have had another baby to add to his family, but that’s doesn’t mean Ben Affleck is ready to quit his career in filmmaking just yet.
“I don’t want to be a stay-at-home dad,” the Oscar-winning actor, 40, tells Details' in their October issue. “Work is very important to me. I like to work. But I need my work to mean something to me in order for me to not be home with them.”
The director of the upcoming Argo and doting dad admits, “Running after three kids is very trying.” Affleck – who shares Violet, 6, Seraphina, 3, and Samuel, 6 months with his actress wife of seven years, Jennifer Garner – confesses at time he feels guilt with the competition he feels between his schedule and his family.
“Anytime you think, ‘I’m wasting my time here,’ the first thought you have is, ‘I could go home and be with my kids,’” Affleck says. “Now, you may go home and be with your kids and very quickly start thinking, ‘I wonder what’s on the work front?’”
Even though the father of-three does his best to make time for his little ones, when the actor-turned-director begins filming, Affleck depends heavily on Garner to carry his load.
“I am not very present in the rest of my life,” he confesses. “My wife’s very patient. She does everything. If I have time, I try to spend time with the kids, even if just to be a physical presence, the bath, whatever.”
Even though Affleck does make time for his kids, the filmmaker can’t help but think of his film work.
“My mind’s always going, ‘How are we going to light that show tomorrow? What’s the master shot for that scene? Is there even going to be a master?’” Affleck says. “Just ruminating endlessly. Because for me — I wish it was discipline or being a great artist. But it’s just anxiety.”
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