Cheryl Cole is clearly in no mood to forgive her cheating husband Ashley just yet.

The Girls Aloud singer – who fled to a Thai island with bandmates Nicole Roberts and Kimberley Walsh to comtemplate her future with the love rat footballer – has reportedly sparked fears for her health by chain-smoking and refusing to eat since the infidelity claims broke.

However, Cheryl insists she’s no ‘victim.’

A fellow guest at the resort tells The Sun that the devastated star told a pal over the phone: “Don’t treat me like a victim. I’m not a f****** victim, I’m a grown woman.

“People email me, ‘Poor you, poor thing’. F***. 

“How can I trust my fella again? He’s damaged goods. I knew something was wrong when I confronted him about some woman and he made up some s***** excuse rather than deny it outright.”

The holidaymaker added: “Cheryl is clearly devastated - she looked stick thin.”

By contrast, Ashley was snapped sharing a joke with his team mates during a Chelsea training session yesterday morning.